Consequence of Shattered Innocence

Secrets hidden well,
To cover up the shame,
Memories suppressed inside,
To bring relief from the pain.
Nightmares constantly present,
To remind that the past is real,
Sickness retching the body,
To release the disgust they feel.
Pasts that still haunt,
Both at day and by night,
Lives forever altered,
By something far from right.
Children left alone,
Trying once again to be whole,
This unforgivable devastation,
Forever tormenting their souls.
Many questions yet unanswered,
They still sit and wonder why,
Was there a reason, a purpose,
To the cause of them wanting to die?
I feel as if I'm being forced to live up to some special standards. there was a point in my life where everything just felt right, i miss it. I'm making a promise to myself now though, that no matter what I'm going to live life. with everything bad that's been happening lately I've had my little ray of hope. he's been my prince charming, here to keep my safe. I'm just falling for him more and more. I'm really scared though, the first time left me silently broken...i just don't want to make the same mistake twice. it's not fair to him, and maybe he'll be the one to truly help me get over it and heal.
time is of the essence.