Old Poem (dusting it off)

Secrets hidden well,
To cover up the shame,
Memories suppressed inside,
To bring relief from the pain.
Nightmares constantly present,
To remind that the past is real,
Sickness retching the body,
To release the disgust they feel.
Pasts that still haunt,
Both at day and by night,
Lives forever altered,
By something far from right.
Children left alone,
Trying once again to be whole,
This unforgivable devastation,
Forever tormenting their souls.
Many questions yet unanswered,
They still sit and wonder why,
Was there a reason, a purpose,
To the cause of them wanting to die?

You don't really know till...

You don't really know what love is till it hits you like a ton of bricks. I look back on my older post and i see how i use to ramble on about how i was "in love", but i look back now, and i only see those feelings as a mere crush now. I have never felt such a strong feeling than what i have now for Devian. He is truly my love :) and it makes me happy just to type it out here. My life is much happier now than what it use to be. I have tamed my demons, and i have stopped crying, i have become a stronger, more independent woman. I know that i will be okay no matter what the outcome may be.
I recently lost a friend, when i thought to turn here again to express how i felt about it all. I am ANGRY, about what happened. Stupidity should never cause someone to lose their life.
I don't want to go into details because it is still an ongoing investigation. But i pray that the hand of justice will be heavy and swift on this case. So that her soul may rest easy and that she may be in the hands of the Lord.
RIP sweetie :)